Dr's appt.

Today, I went to my first Dr's. appt. and he asked me how I was feeling and I told him I have been having cramps and have been spotting for a couple of days and so He did an ultrasound to see how the baby was. WELL, We found out that I am pregnant with twins (fraternal twins) and one came from tubes and the one cme from the other tube. the one on the right was developing 2 weeks behind the other one and the heart beat was 50 and the health baby's heart beat was 140. he said the one must not be getting enough oxygen and that is why it is dying off he said there is only like a 20% chance of it making it. I asked him if it was common and he said it happens in like 35-40% of twins so it is common. So he put me on a 3 week bed rest to see what happens cause if I am going to miscarry it will happen by the 13-14 week. I had my dad and Jeff give me a blessing to help me deal with it. and I have come to reason that the lord give us problems that we can handle and that we can learn from. I know that the baby may only need to come down and get a body and then gets to go to heaven. As we told Aspyn about it. she said " Mom, maybe grandma cassie needed it to stay with her cause she misses you and she loves you." after I cried after she said it I told her "You are probably right." In the picture you can see the baby better on the left side better than the right baby. the baby on the right is so tiny they barely saw it. and the heart beat was so slow. they didn't even think it was even there until they looked at it better.So, I have to keep praying that things will happen for a reason and trust in him. If you look you can see the baby really small on the right side it is a bad picture sorry that was the best one I could take with me camera.